Pursuing Happiness Since a Child Aged 8

Staring into a sky so perfect blue The wispy white clouds highlighted now stand further out And I am suddenly stood transfixed And I can feel the sun warming comfortably at my back As I am dressed inappropriately in black And all I see abound me is shimmering in glee The breeze is dancing throughout the heather unabridged scott care free Until no longer on I wish no more on to go As ever so suddenly I realize I am awakening Now the bird song comes into soft focus I somehow never noticed a moment just before Flowing ever so gently at towards me out from nature's tree Nothing left of this day I wish nor want again to pursuit And all I do nodd in acknowledgement and appreciation As come to think of it I haven't spoken nor said anything in a while All I can do and am doing is wearing a cheesy grin and smile And I am drowned in fits and spurts Of the rapture of the silence taking over me I've finally jettisoned all of my pain and distain away Set cut adrift from my stricken ship I am finally free at last As I think I have at last least found my Field of Dreams And so too found release I one day seen walking out hidden behind that rainbow I witnessed in a park after a rain shower And this is one of those days forevermore I will remember Lest forget As I haven't had precious little of these In fact very few and far in-between Since I was a young child of perhaps maybe aged 8 years old And though it may have taken an eternity for me here to arrive I certainly don't plan leaving this Helium balloon magical infused life Any time soon Without putting up an erstwhile fight Because I think I have done and sacrificed Enough for and on the part of other's In order for me to believe and justify I truly deserve staying put And I am going nowhere Unless that be Receding back to much happier time's Un - Malighed & Un - Tarnished Unless of course that is Loving and caring Is deemed to be my crime And if so be it that is the case For the prosecution to charge me with Then that also suits me just fine as well As who better than I knows myself fully warts and all Also to as well And I now have all my ducks in a row Which I am willing and enabled to defend As upon reflection up until now I can finally fall soundly asleep Come the haunting bewitching Hour strikes Death of day cometh midnight