Prostration

Now there are two of us that don't know what to do, I thought that we understood each other. After last night I feel even more confused, all because of one person called your mother. Are we both gluttons for punishment? Why must we go through this again? I'm tired of living in a state of advent, it effects us both, this marriage in a life of bane. I cannot contest the decisions you make, but don't act out of desperation. It's no different than taming a poisonous snake, which in the long run brings no salvation. Feeling now that my thoughts or opinions don't matter, even if it is only for a short duration. With tears running down my face, my mind and heart shattered, this one burden in our lives I wish for cessation. Maybe I'm overreacting for those who know me can say, but all I know is I hate feeling this way. Cause I love you so very much I trust you in all that you do, even if we both end up insane, all that I am will always be with you.