Predictable

Thinking about everything in my life wondering why it feels like i'm standing in the rain wasting away.Different parts of me peeling, I just want to scream and crack a few mirrors. Do something drastic just to change at least one thing. Open up a window that's always been closed, lose an earring on the way walking home. Bump into a stranger that turns out to be everything i'm looking for. What i'm looking for is more. Cause the way I see it my life is getting far to predictable. Watching everyone in slow motion hoping that I could some how escape away from everything and everyone in this bubble. I watch my shadow in passing store window and get this sudden urge to disappear, I wish I could float to another plane where I could feel sane again. Sometimes I wonder why my friends are my friends... and why my family got me as a daughter or why guys even bother. Sometimes nothing makes sense but I live anyway. I'm not saying that I live happily I just live. Now don't worry I won't end up like those suicidal girls you hear about on the news. I have to much to live for and far too much to lose. Maybe it's just because i'm bored that i'm feeling this way. My life a precipice and day to day there's the same old cycle. I feel like i'm frozen. Trapped and there's no sun to bake me free. Nobody to hear the cries, nobody who cares at all about my smile. At least not enough to wake me from this sleep... I'm drowning is anyone going to rescue me before I fall in a lake and fill to the brim with my sorrows? This world is give and take. But constantly I just feel live i'm waiting. I don't want to wait anymore... I don't want the world I just want more. What I want is to stop feeling so perdictable.