Poem Xiii - Dear Daddy

Dear Daddy. You've been gone for so long I can't even tell when Father's Day is. The last time I could remember running to wake you up was in Grade 4. I'm in Matric now, 8 years since you've done that and 7 since you've been gone. Dear Daddy. Why did you leave? Please tell me. I'm old enough to understand now. I was only 9 and my boy was 5. Did you know that you left two weeks before he turned 6? All he knew was that Daddy went to go visit his family and would be back someday. Daddy take note that I do not cal you Father because I'm still a boy who needs to be taught the ways of a man. When I would loose a tooth you'd put a quarter under my pillow but a quarter can't change into a dollar now can it? It needs to be invested and through time it shall be a dollar. I'm not saying that you were never there you just never invested the time you were suppose to when I needed you. I remember the days I'd sit on your belly and watch cricket with you but understand that life will never be the same without you. Dear Daddy I remember when you and Mommy used to dance with me. You loved the oldies. Did you know that I can't listen to Luther Vandross - Dance With My Father without crying? Please Daddy please may I have one last dance. I'd play that song over and over again because I never want you to leave ever. I want you to come back and be my Father. I want you to look at me and say "My son you are now a man." I don't get how people could hate their Daddies when it's a boy's biggest dream to have a male role model. I sometimes wish I could write letters to heaven so that God could hold in His hands a message from a heartbroken son who just wants to see his Daddy watch him becoming a successful man. Dear Daddy regardless what you've done in the past, what you're doing now or what you're about to do in my life, you my paps and I'm your boy. That love will never change. 2014/05/25