Poem of My Pain (Condensed)

I stand like a rock, Against the pain, So they have wrought, My family sees me now, As only a prop, I get treated like crap everyday, With none by my side. I am here in the dark, alone with none willing to, Comfort my heart, I try my to gain respect, But I am still alone, People all over have hope, But me nope. I stand by myself, Dealing with pain so deep, It would make any normal, person want to weep, My emotional pain hurts so much, I could rip out my guts, And not feel as much as others, Would from a paper cut. While everyone whines, to pass the time, I sit next to you, A tortured soul all have abused. I go on while others die, people ask why, I know this that one day, My love will be returned in full. I will try my best, To wait for that progress. While people kill themselves, Over a crush I try not to go, Nuts to all I am but a thing, There to comfort them with their needs, none can see me, I wear a mask just to hide and stop, The crying. I hide my pain waiting for the one, To come rescue me. I listen to you complain, Then I tell you of my pain not only to help, You but to see if you care about me, I always set near to comfort those, that I hope, Will not let my heart stay broke. so far none have come to my side, To help me in most dire of times, I cry in front of all, To see who cares about my fall. I shouldn't have to beg for hugs, I shouldn't need to plead for love, I cry in front of all to nudge, Those who care into the open, None care after all, To pry and hope is what I seek, When I sit around and weep. I try to hold out against hope, But no one seems to come to, My side now my world is, crumbling all around, I will weather this storm alone if I must. smash me down all you want but, Know this when I get up you'll be sorry, I have stood my ground so far alone, My hide has become diamond, Every once in a while it may break, But it grows back harder then before. I stand here like I always have to keep others safe, The pain you cause is mine to bare not theirs, I will be merciful to you wretched beings, Who for 19 years tortured me. I was not a fool nor, Will I be all of my life people hand me my, rage to use on them at any point, I don't because I would be, As bad as you are but I will come up with ways to pay, You back for the pain that has come to fall, On my shoulders here I make my stand and refuse to budge, My beliefs are strong enough to, Crush even gods and death.