Pictures she fakes

She updated her picture on Facebook today Smilling by flowers, nothing to get in her way On seeing the picture I just couldn't hate The person she is, though she's made me this way I noticed that she had put on weight I'm skinner then her now a fact she will hate! She's always been superficial about looks Its clear to see she is not as happy as the picture she took It made me smile that I look better than her now A small victory for me though it may seem soar Iv lots 8 stone through illness alone My struggles to her I have made known I contacted her when I was admitted to hospital But she only cared it was my husband who told her She contacted me to ask which number I'm on That's all she asked, there was no contact no more That was last September, she's hasn't called to check If I'm better now and if the illness is in check I guess I should not be surprised This is a women who belives all her lies I feel so rotten critiquing her weight But she told me being skinny was the only way Being overweight was never right in her eyes My weight disgusted her through all my life But as I say im nearly "skinny" now If she still loved me she would be "proud" I fit in now what with what she sees as beauty But her personality always made me feel ugly I don't ever see looks in people The inside is the only thing that makes people real But with her its the inside that makes, Her outside ugly no matter the amounts of pictures she fakes Iv got one thing going for me, of that I'm happy Both of my parents are not what they would call "ugly" A full of head of hair in their late 50's The only genes I'm happy they gave me When I see her smile I know that she hides The darkness she has buried inside Through all my life I believed she was right But this small victory will help me sleep tonight Today im glad I look exactly like him My face doesnt harbour or hide any darkness within It always pained her I was his "twin" Maybe thats why she always made me hate my skin It doesn't matter if your fat or thin Its the beauty that matters that you find within A supefical victory today I did win My weight or my looks were never a sin!!!