Pen, Inspired By Lamia Hall

In a sort of way I was like her pen. Whenever she needed a place to vent I was there. In the times when truth was hard to bare. The world a bit colder. Is when she stained me with her hands. A place she felt most comfortable. She'd wake out of a dead sleep, to tell me all of her dreams. The things that kept her up at night. Her fears, her aspirations.  She inspired me as well. To give as much as I could. Knowing her to be all I could depend. Generous in the way I laid beneath her words. I remained humble. Replacing my top with every syllable she spoke. learning to speak in the times she didn't know which word felt best.  Shutting the world out for moments longer. In times I wasn't my best. She never minded the ink on her hands. The moments that became hesitant. Large blotches of ink clogged in a moment of weakness. The silence of a moment where silence spoke volume. Closed pen top. The inadequacy of being used until nothing was left. This was how I viewed the world until she opened me up. Often times I'd dangle from her front pocket. Kept warm by her side. Away from all the other things she'd carry in her bag. In all honesty I loved every story she'd tell. Shedding light on her perspective of life. To leave the old me somewhere on a desk I felt at home living and breathing, nestled between her fingers. At neither time did we feel we'd run out of ink. Scribbling her pain, her pleasure  With my fingers. And I, curled up in a blanket until the sun rose in her eyes