Patience

i sit within this darkened room while contemplating death examining my life ahead each day’s become a test i need to ascertain the core and reason for my pain because if i don’t find it soon i won’t see morrow’s day my bourbon’s neat and mind’s a mess i’m barely holding on it’s been some time since she left me still mourning that she’s gone i need to reconcile this loss in turn becoming whole for Jesus has prepared a room for her eternal soul my faith reminds that i will see this mitigates my pain is patience what i’m want to learn ‘fore i see her again Lord please forgive my daily sins these wages i have earned i’ve gone through an internal war i’ve lessons yet to learn