Past Reference

Where would I dine inside your heart If I have felt love then I have feared pain And If I have feared pain then I have tasted lust.. Where would I be had I not tasted your lips, Had I not felt you sacredly inside? You took over my being and held me captive till I could not see And you stripped away all that I once knew. I gave myself to only you and you took that knowledge and ran away with my still beating heart You coveted me with words of, "you knew" "love", and, " I didn't mean to hurt you". I shed so many tears longing just to have you And you laughed in my face silently Oh, what I wouldn't have given to be stronger in those earlier day's and to see the sign of regret on your face. I touched your malice and I glimpsed into your black soul I yielded the pain that kept your heart inside those walls and I made you want to love again. This was my pentence Making all that have left me behind see they could truly love again And from my past live's the pain I had dealt Had now become my own. I begged them not for forgiveness Cause all that had been done to them They had the gratification of doing it back to me. Eternally I am sorry, Have I not been punished enough?