Paranoid Passion

There is always a temptation to allow passion to become so close- So I see any efforts to help as sabotage. None of them think my passions make any sense. Maybe that’s because I am trying to grasp at too many sparks. Maybe I am scared that all my efforts can be undone by one person’s doubt. So I keep those passions a secret that ends up dissolving. So all I can do is leave behind pages of ramblings. Ramblings that turn to secrets that will shatter if unturned. It is sad that what they are noticing is not my motivation- But instead they can sense me becoming more distant. I can not allow my passion to be tainted by their advice. Advice that I fear could be sabotage. As they are all plotting my undoing.