Pamela Why

(The Revelation...) I felt my heart jumping out of my body the moment i heard papa call your name It was like a trance to me Shown on a dualized page of pain and doubt This must be an unprecedented joke! I thought As I just needed to be normal again (The Story Begins...) I could still remember that hopeless night When I received that call - The very heartbreaking news That I was no more good For the $20,000 dollar business offer Which was the prime of my breakthrough Suddenly, life almost pathed ways with me Turning my deep blue sky into grey Cause the sugar has slipped off my lips And the golden egg snatched between my palms Leaving my anticipated heaven a pool of hell water But even in my hopes-crash I was still fine because you cuddled me, You cuddled me like a weaning child Held my hurting head between your cleavage And told me I would be fine And that, 'this too shall pass' I believed you Because all I wanted was just the comforting words of a true friend And I got them! You were the backbone of my strength You were the lens of my focus You were the pillar on which my hope leaned But little did I know that you were just a wild beast in a domestic cave (Feelings of betrayal sets in...) I still can't believe you kissed me with a slap in my face You stabbed me and told me I would be fine You made me hungry and gave me a little buns You made me cry and gave me a tiny wipe to dry my tears (Voice started shrieking...) Wait... Wait... Wait... But we discussed about it And you told me I would be fine We even prayed about it And you told me God was in charge Meanwhile, you were in charge (Heart burned and feelings bursted...) Ah! My heart breaks and bleeds For who I revered the most was the landlord of my sufferings (Mind retrospects in pains...) But I loved you I trusted you We shared everything in common Cause I valued our friendship And wanted our bond to last for ever But here is my reward... Pains...! You turned my laughter into pains And wrote my name in the book of lamentation That every leave I flip Reveals the bitter page of my dark morning Pamela... You have become a torn in my flesh And a sore in my wound Every sight of you seems like beholding the shadow of death I will forever regret the day our paths crossed And though heaven has judged And the truth revealed This scar will never go away Cause this question forever rings in my head... ...PAMELA WHY? © A poetic monologue written by GREAT JAJA