Painful Memories
Remembering what I saw
Is this memory for real
Am I torturing myself for nothing
Will this last
Should I worry
It happened in the past
Thinking about what's in this life
Does it even matter how I feel
I'm just a man left alone
Surrounded by his own misery
Most people have turned on me
I did not realize
This is it how I chose to be
Not how I wanted to make it
Never considering why
I didn't think about what I had
What I feel seems so fake
Today I'll just hide the pain
All I can do is try to visualize
What my mind cannot see
It took my youth from me
Still thinking to this day
Of a terrible memory
When I almost died
I looked for a new life
Left those who wanted to stay
I pushed true love away
No one knew when I cried
My soul to filled with false pride
For these mistakes
I would be forced to pay
With my own sanity
The benefits that came so fast
They were not enough
Because now I see
They would not last
I am to blame
I should not have left
Love only comes once
It will never be the same
I can not relive my life
I can not reclaim the past
Now I must set myself free
At last my future may belong to me
Copyright © Matt Forshay | Year Posted 2015
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