Painful Life

To lie up in this bed and be so weak Daydream to the world and can't even speak Everyone thinks I'm strong, but don't have a clue. I'm fighting for my life with everything to lose. People think I'm so strong, but I just smile to keep from crying Shedding my pain to the side, but inside, I'm slowly dying I ask my God why is this happening to me I haven't lived my life yet, I have a family To motion and not move, being paralyzed is cruel But that is my life, and I got everything to lose Sometimes, I wonder why I stay I'm getting older and older, and my life is fading away But when I move my legs, they are soft like jelly Moment like this, I just lay back down and say forget it