Pain

My unbearable pain tries to choke my soul Trying to take over Trying to swallow me whole It mangles everything that I ever believed in Making me think Think that I committed a shoddier sin It tears at my heart Till it pours crimson red All the memories raging through my head Being in a act, like putting on a play Screaming the words, That I will never be able to say Trapped in this bleak depression state Try to block it all out The cold, the tears, the hate I watch helpless as the days march on, Watching it all wither away To be forever gone Draining ever last bit of happiness and hope So hard to keep back the tears So hard to try to even cope Slowly creeping into each and every vein Beating me down Just pouring like the rain Wonder what the future holds for me Afraid to look ahead Just to even peak and see That it all just got worse from the start Couldn’t stay in control Everything just fell all part They all think my life is peachy keen They don’t know what’s going on What all I have seen It seems I have it made but I hide it with a smile This feeling never meets death It’s been lurking there for a while Can’t escape this empty dreadful fear Don’t leave me alone To yell those words I hate to hear Take me apart piece by piece Just wishing one great day This pain will all cease Laying in bed to think of a cold way out But their hearts are like stone Love, ha, I doubt They took away everything that meant the most Wish that this was all over That this would all just coast Mirror, mirror, on the wall Is there anyone there Anyone that cares at all I go run away to my hiding place To get away from everything Away from their relentless face All these thoughts just torture me Leaving me here Open here for all to see Just cut me up with the jagged pain Barely gripping reality On the verge of being totally insane