Pain

Sitting here wishing I was dead, Fearing the thoughts running through my head. The pain I feel is more than I can stand, Falling through hell in fire I land. Everyone I love wishes me gone, Everything in my life is wrong. So how do I fix what's broken beyond repair, And why should I bother if nobody cares. Everything hurts and I want to explode, When it comes to pain I've hit the mother load. With all of this I can not deal, Nothing in life feels real. I'm fighting a battle I can't win, Everything I do an unforgivable sin. I'm dying inside and can't save myself, And to all of of those I trusted none will help. A bullet to the head sounds like a good ideal, Because pain is all that I can feel. Emotions run rampant and blindingly so, Spinning in circles with no where to go. Stuck in my head standing over my grave, I was the one I couldn't save.