overthought

now im overanalyzing again playing out dumb scenarios that would never happen in real life thinking far too much about other people people who dont think about me it’s stupid wasting my energy on them but i just cant stop i just cant now im filling my day stuffing it full so i dont have to think anymore just so maybe someone will see me but even i dont i dont know how to be me just because i tried that already because it’s too much pressure an obligation to reply when i cant even feel safe with them when i dont know if they do see me and dont know if they ever would