Eileen Manassian Poet Free verse

Overinvested

I overinvested again...
The story of my life
Or so it seems
Overinvested

I've overinvested

In my dreams….
Thinking I’d reach the stars
When I can’t break through 
The atmosphere of my world

In my friends….
Thinking that they ARE my world
When they are sometimes just islands
Inaccessible to me

In my wisdom….
Thinking I can discern all truth
When I can’t even fathom,
the simple workings
of my own mind

In worthy causes...
Thinking I can save the world
Make a difference
When I need someone
To save the endangered species
Of ME

In love…
I've overinvested in love
Thinking the dividends will pay off
But I’m overdrawn…overdrawn
Unable to cover the costs of loving
When not enough deposits are made
In my personal love account

I've overinvested in my words...
Thinking that with them
I can change perceptions, thoughts, feelings
When I can’t even change
the thought patters and emotional grooves
of those in my sphere of influence
With the little things I write

I've overinvested in people's words...
Thinking they are specially crafted for me
Each one embued with magic and charm
When they are mass produced
In the same factory
Said to others
With the same intensity

I’ve overinvested….In everyone...in everything
But me….
Poor little me...
From me I've withheld 
Time
Love
Compassion

I've not invested in ME
The only one I have to live with
Every minute, every hour, of everyday
From now till eternity…

Yes…YES…It’s time to invest in ME!

Eileen Manassian Ghali

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Andrea Dietrich August 27, 2013 at 2:36 PM hmmm, you said I missed some major mistakes earlier. But by now you must have corrected them. If I see major stuff wrong, I often say something. Sorry if I missed something really wrong the other day!! I know how THAT goes at 2 a.m!!! Eileen Manassian August 28, 2013 at 11:41 AM :) Yes, Andrea....I welcome corrections from you... :) Thanks for getting back to me on this. Yes, I shouldn't be such a silly goose to post at 2 am. Perhaps I have the same sickness Van Gogh had....hypergraphia! He wrote SOOO many letters to his brother. Came in handy because we know so much about his life...Ooooppsss, there I go again. Ok..I'll stop now!

Ken Carroll August 27, 2013 at 10:05 AM HI Eileen, Good original write as it was a worthy investment today to read,, Ken.. Eileen Manassian August 28, 2013 at 11:49 AM Awwwww....thanks, very sweet of you!

Sara Kendrick August 27, 2013 at 9:54 AM Yes, you need to invest in yourself..God first, then you, then husband and children or family then those out side of the family that are important...Let things and the to do list get smaller..Thanks for the visit to my work..Your comments are uplifting..Sara Eileen Manassian August 28, 2013 at 11:50 AM Sara....I see you have your priorities straight! Thank you for the advice...Somehow...when you put God first, the others fall into place...hmmmmmmm....Yes, food for thought! Hugs!

Richard Lamoureux August 27, 2013 at 8:31 AM So many are uninvested and they will never receive the dividends that you do. This is a truly amazing piece. Well done! Hugs Rick Eileen Manassian August 28, 2013 at 11:52 AM Thanks, Richard...sweet post.

Poet Tacito August 27, 2013 at 7:32 AM Water your roots and grow first, before you help another do the same. I was that person for a long while where I gave too much for another. Today, it's the other way around. I grow. I shine. Wonderful writing! Eileen Manassian August 28, 2013 at 11:53 AM You surely do, Drake...So proud of you! Yes...you are right...I'll try! Thanks for helping me learn and grow....

Yadhu Babu August 27, 2013 at 2:24 AM NICE AND SIMPLE..ONE Eileen Manassian August 28, 2013 at 11:58 AM Thanks...Simple is good too! :)

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Andrea Dietrich August 26, 2013 at 4:54 PM Eileen this is a really cool poem. Some of those things you mentioned I too have been much too overinvested in; however, I always invest enough in ME!!! Clever girl! Eileen Manassian August 26, 2013 at 10:44 PM THANKS, sweet Andrea. :) You are a dear....Yes, I have neglected myself of late..."Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all" (the late great Whitney Houston). Hmmmmmm...Well, Jesus did say, "Love your neighbors as YOURSELF." So, He did point that out LONG before....I'll try, Andrea. It's one thing to say it and another thing to do it! HUGS!

Charmaine Chircop August 26, 2013 at 4:36 PM Eileen you are such a besutiful soul..and the wsy you express your emotions..so deep.Its time to invest in special you dear.I can understand your emotions precisely..Excellent words. Eileen Manassian August 26, 2013 at 10:41 PM Thanks, Charmaine. You are a soul sister to me. I only have two older brothers, so believe me, having a sister is a blessing...and one such as you! I'm sending you my love. Yes...I do plan to invest more in me...starting with my health...Going to start an exercise routine!!! Also, have to work on my thesis to finish my studies....it's on Collaborative Writing a a means of increasing motivation to write. So many things...I might be less here...WHO AM I KIDDING??? I'm addicted! LOVE YA

Eileen Manassian August 26, 2013 at 3:52 PM The concept of withdrawals and deposits into a love bank is taken from the book: 5 Love Languages by Gary Chapman! A great read. Look it up! The Five Love Languages are as follows: 1) Words of Affirmation (me), 2) Touch (me) 3) Acts of Service 4) Gifts and 5) Quality time....