One Year

One year ago, I smiled in the late hours of night, because all I could think about were the stupid, crazy, wonderful things you had said that day. I memorized the lines of our script, because no one else said them that way. 12 months ago, I told myself to be wary, that to love you would bring me pain. But then you draped your jacket over me, when we walked home in the rain. I frequently said it wasn’t bad, I could quit you any time. 365 days ago, I counted the hours until I’d see you again. I told myself it was unhealthy, but I was strapped to a high speed bus. I told myself that there was a distinct possibility that there was more. That maybe for once, I was pretty enough, or witty enough, or even funny enough. 52 weeks ago, I used to stare at you from a distance, And I always compared myself to all the girls you hugged. But you told me you liked me best, and that no matter what, I would always be your favorite. 8,765 hours ago, I hung on to your very essence, While trying not to seem too interested. You always had a smile ready for me, and we talked about our favorite things. Somehow you became a wizard, And I was enticed under your spell. 525,949 minutes ago, I was hopelessly devoted to you. I would’ve ventured into unknown galaxies, because you were the pilot. I knew back then that even though I was probably looking too much into things. you made me feel beautiful for once in my life. 31, 536, 000 seconds ago, I was flailing helplessly, trying to not be left in your dust. I told my mother that I loved you, she said: “It’s just a crush.” But it was more. I just prayed when I told you, you wouldn’t leave me in the dust. One year later, I realize how stupid I really was. Ignorance is bliss, And you yanked me directly off of cloud 9. With just one short, little sentence. “I don’t feel the same way.” Everything shattered; All those hours that were used. But now, I won't waste a single second more on you.