One Year
One year ago,
I smiled in the late hours of night,
because all I could think about
were the stupid, crazy, wonderful things
you had said that day.
I memorized the lines of our script,
because no one else said them that way.
12 months ago,
I told myself to be wary,
that to love you would bring me pain.
But then you draped your jacket over me,
when we walked home in the rain.
I frequently said it wasn’t bad,
I could quit you any time.
365 days ago,
I counted the hours until I’d see you again.
I told myself it was unhealthy,
but I was strapped to a high speed bus.
I told myself that there was a distinct possibility that there was more.
That maybe for once, I was pretty enough,
or witty enough,
or even funny enough.
52 weeks ago,
I used to stare at you from
a distance,
And I always compared myself
to all the girls you hugged.
But you told me you liked me best,
and that no matter what,
I would always be your favorite.
8,765 hours ago,
I hung on to your very essence,
While trying not to seem too interested.
You always had a smile ready for me,
and we talked about our favorite things.
Somehow you became a wizard,
And I was enticed under your spell.
525,949 minutes ago,
I was hopelessly devoted to you.
I would’ve ventured into unknown galaxies,
because you were the pilot.
I knew back then that even though I was probably looking too
much into things.
you made me feel beautiful for once in my life.
31, 536, 000 seconds ago,
I was flailing helplessly,
trying to not be left in your dust.
I told my mother that I loved you,
she said: “It’s just a crush.”
But it was more.
I just prayed when I told you,
you wouldn’t leave me in the dust.
One year later,
I realize how stupid I really was.
Ignorance is bliss,
And you yanked me directly off of cloud 9.
With just one short, little sentence.
“I don’t feel the same way.”
Everything shattered;
All those hours that were used.
But now, I won't waste a single second more on you.
Copyright © Del Higgs | Year Posted 2015
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