Once Again

Here I am again on this nights eve Wishing so hard you were here with me And from this moment we would never leave But for now all I have are these words And there it is my heart being worn on my sleeve It's laying there trying so very hard not to bleed With each syllable another drop falls down The agony is all around No matter what I'm needing to get done Thoughts of you are never far away The memory of you don't stray Right with me that's where it always stays No matter how much I cry over you I'm never cried out for you No matter how much I pray to have you near You are still not here The more the days drag on by The worse I seem to get Left here for dead to wonder why Do I have all this remembrance to sort I realize life is way to short And you need to place that bet The moments of my past are very near and dear to my heart And I still believe whole heartingly we should've never been torn apart But why do these thoughts consume me I love you so much can't you see And it hurts so bad my heart longs to be free Free of the hurt but yet I long for your love Needing to hold you so close You are to me the one sent from up above My pen flows across this paper with ease Yet to speak these words aloud to you Well that would bring me to my knees For awhile now and until my time comes my pain will not end It will continue to haunt me unless that is... ...I can hold you forever once again