Once

Once Once I lived and danced in the sun But now I dance no more For the sun has abandoned me My skies are black And there’s no longer anything to dance for My illnesses are my shackles My feet are stuck firmly in the mud I gave my overflowing love to everyone As much as my tormented soul could But I feel I have failed as a man No one wants it It’s never good enough Dejected and rejected Abandoned and neglected Naked and unprotected I just exist Never to feel a lovers loving touch My heart is broken and hurts so much Everyone wants to know me But no one really wants me at all OI look around and there’s no one there To catch me when I fall I never asked to be born I guess I was cursed at birth As nothing ever goes right I wish I’d never wake up And sleep and perish In deaths eternal night I was never weak But too strong I just pushed myself too far My body couldn’t take it For I did it for far too long Crushed afraid to dream The gold in my bewildered soul Turns to dust My resolve and forsaken years Now resigned to my life s expanding scrap yard And decay and rust I climb a new mountain everyday With too many obstetrical s in my way Trying in desperation To climb a slippery slope With no one to give a helping hand There’s little hope Sleep be my only allie In a war I can never win But when I awake on my bed of nails It hits me hard where I am The nightmare then begins Soon to be just a forgot name on a tombstone I live a legacy in my words For those around the world Who do and have read my words over the years And in so I hope I have inspired and helped someone Long after I’m gone Through my words My voice and deepest thoughts I may have perished But my soul and heart will live on. Peter Dome©2019.