Oh, Is This What I Was Waiting For

Oh, Is This What I Was Waiting For? When I was just a baby in the womb, my mother rejected me and I believe that the Lord told me many years later that she had wanted to lose me. She had been married before and had my two sisters but their father, ran off and left her for another woman. When my father and mom were married, she got pregnant with me in two short months. I believe that she was afraid that daddy might run off and leave her then, with three small children but, daddy was a man of integrity and had a true sense of being a man of his word. He had gladly taken on the responsibility of helping mom raise my two sisters and now I was soon to come on the scene. The Bible states, when father and mother reject you, God will take you up and the Lord told me one day, He took me up from the womb and called me to be a servant of His. I must have felt that as a young child. I remember looking up to the sky at night and thinking, the stars are God’s windows. My two sisters didn’t have that kind of sense or knowing but then, I was looking for Him all of my life but didn’t know how to reach Him. One day, when I was 29 years old and had started attending the Catholic Church again because I was raised Catholic, I met a woman at our church who really knew Jesus. She asked me to come to her home and have lunch, so, I went and my youngest son went with me. She started talking all about Jesus but, in my heart I thought, “Doesn’t she know that He is dead”? That is the way He is pictured in the Catholic church…. He is still on the ross, “dead”! She gave me a book to read that day called, “The Holy Spirit and You”. I started reading it and did exactly what it said to do. If you want to receive Jesus Christ as your Savior, ask Him to come into your life and take it over and to forgive you of all of your sins and serve Him all of your days. Well sir, I did that over and over and over but, there was no change in me. I had a keen sense that there must be a change when you give your life to Christ! Finally at one point, I gave up thinking that He didn’t want me either. So my friend asked us up for lunch again and she said, “Marilyn, don’t you want to receive Jesus and your Lord and Savior? I said, “Oh, I have done that many times but, I don’t think He wants me”! She said, “Why would you think that”? I said, “Because I have asked Him to come into my heart many, many times but, there hasn’t been any changes yet”! She said, “Well, did you believe He came in when you asked Him to”? I said, “Oh, you mean you have to do that to”? When I realized that day that He came in the first time I asked, the tremendous changes started happening in my life and our family. Then it was time for the Holy Ghost baptism! Every night when the kids were in bed and their father was working, I would kneel down at the end of my bed and ask Him to fill me with the Holy Ghost and then I would hang onto to the footboard of the bed so I wouldn’t fly around the room!!! True story!!! I finally got it! I was like a person who was starving to death and when I had received the Baptism of the Spirit it was like He presented a beautiful feast banquet table before me and I couldn’t understand why no one wanted to come and eat with me! I chased more friends off the first week I got filled with the Spirit all because I told them what happened to me! I had been “Born Again” and now I was filled with God’s Spirit and I wanted the “WORLD” to know!!! After seven years of my serving God, unfortunately, the kids' dad wasn't too happy with the change. He said, he liked me better as a Catholic and at one point he told me, "You can have the Lord or you can have me but, you can't have us both"! I told him, "Well, I have to go with the Lord because He is my Savior"! Sixteen years after a divorce from the kid’s father, I met and married a man of God who enjoyed feasting at the BANQUET TABLE that the Lord set before us both!!! God bless, Marilyn S. Jennings April 20, 2018