Oblivious

I cannot stand your presence for another day,
You have ruined me in every possible way,
All this hidden pain inside was caused by you,
My tears were invisible, so you never knew.

You abused me daily with your uncaring words,
I ignored it and pretended like it was unheard,
You continued to prey on me without seeing,
That those words were hurting my every feeling.

I lived my life believing what you had said,
Your voice constantly echoing in my head,
I could not be myself because of you,
See the damage that you put me through.

Over the past few months something changed,
As my once sad thoughts were rearranged,
I have found friends who brighten up my days,
They have changed my life in so many ways.

My friends are encouraging me to just be,
I will never be like you, don't you see,
Now finally free my voice can be heard,
There is positivity coming from my every word.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Scott Avatar
January 9, 2021 at 1:44 AM
Words can be stark can be hurtful can leave thete mark often memorbal like the flow deep write good that yoi change your mind set hope you in better pla ce now mentaly davidscottxx
Bickerstaffe Avatar
January 5, 2016 at 7:19 PM
True to life? I would guess so. No one's heart and soul should be belittled or stomped on in such a way. I'm glad you found friends to help you restore your self-esteem. Best wishes, Keith
Deschler Avatar
January 23, 2016 at 6:24 PM
Thank you, Keith... Yes, sadly this poem is true to life and I'm happy to say that this person is no longer a part of my life. I'm thankful for having such good friends around me now who always keep me smiling :)
Guzzi Avatar
January 24, 2015 at 7:27 PM
Well! you should be positive you are growing & growing every day as a fine writer! My ex also thought writing was a waste of my time [he had other things he's prefer I do, garden, cook, sew- well I'd rather write!] Light & Love
Deschler Avatar
January 28, 2015 at 9:18 PM
Thank you, Debbie. Your comments meant so much to me. I'm glad that you decided to be a writer, too. We are the only ones who can choose how we live our lives. No one else!
Emmons Avatar
December 31, 2014 at 9:42 PM
The will to break away from our oppressors requires us to face our own fears of standing on our own. We can stumble and fall but not into that abyss again. I really liked this Kelly.
Deschler Avatar
January 3, 2015 at 10:44 PM
We do need to face our fears on our own, but if we have friends standing beside us, they can make that much easier... I really appreciate your kind comments, Timothy. Thank you so much. I'm glad you liked my poem!
Bateman Avatar
December 31, 2014 at 7:59 PM
Hello Kelly -- Happy New Year!! I caught your poem by chance in the wee hours of the morning here in Germany. The technical aspects of and structure your poem are, of course, perfect. But I do understand very well the subject of your concern and discourse. I saw Jan's and Maurice's comments and I do agree with them wholeheartedly. A negative environment can pull the very best of us down. It sounds as though you've made the transition you need with your friends for the better. God Bless!! Gary
Bateman Avatar
January 6, 2015 at 3:14 PM
Hello Kelly, I'm glad to be of help however I can be. Bullying and Verbal Abuse are terrible things. And it is so unconscionable that anyone has to put up with it at all in his or her life time. Stay positive and focus on all the good things in your life (including your great talent as a writer)!! I always try to put any negative experiences I've had as far behind me as possible. I just don't say this, I try to practice it every day. Best Wishes to you for 2015 -- and Keep Writing!! Cheers, Gary
Deschler Avatar
January 5, 2015 at 8:13 PM
Hello Gary, When I was a kid, I was bullied and verbally abused by my step-father. That was about 15 years ago, and I am trying to forget the past. But, sometimes certain things just happen that bring those bad memories back to me. I'm so glad to have friends like you, who support me and brighten up my days. Thank you for that :)
Bateman Avatar
January 3, 2015 at 3:41 PM
Hello Kelly, Happy New Year to you too. I'm glad that my words have in some way helped. The main thing is that you are okay now and certainly realized the bad stuff. The key is to get all of that behind you ASAP!! Having good friends will certainly help you to overcome this and move on!! Best Always, Gary
Deschler Avatar
January 3, 2015 at 12:11 AM
Hello Gary, Happy New Year to you! I do appreciate your kind words. Thank you so much... Being bullied hurts deeply for a very long time, and it can control our lives in a negative way. But, with the help of good friends, we can overcome all of that.
Allison Avatar
December 31, 2014 at 7:07 PM
I can only agree with what Maurice has said Kelly - I can relate to the final stanza 100% as since starting to write in February my life has changed oh so much and now I too have a voice:-) Hugs jan xxx
Allison Avatar
January 2, 2015 at 2:23 PM
Thanks for such lovely words - I just write from the heart Kelly it is helping me over the most difficult period of my life - I had never written a poem before my hubby underwent his cancer surgery and now it is like a tap i can't turn off but I never want it to stop! Hugs jan xxx
Deschler Avatar
January 2, 2015 at 2:16 PM
I've been writing for a few years, but I never shared my poems publicly until 2013. I am glad that I did because it has changed my life for the better. I am so grateful for the good friends that I have now... I hope you will continue to share your work with us, Jan. You are a very talented lady. Thank you very much for the kind words!
Yvonne Avatar
December 31, 2014 at 6:02 PM
We are so much more then we realize. When surrounded by negative voices it wears away at our souls. You have friends here as well people who love you and respect you. This an excellent write. Cathartic for writer and reader alike.
Deschler Avatar
January 2, 2015 at 1:34 PM
Those who bully others do not realize how deeply they can hurt us. It takes someone with a good heart to help us to see who we really are... Actually, most of my friends are here on The Soup. Thank you so much for your nice comments, Maurice. They meant a lot to me.
Nehls Avatar
December 31, 2014 at 5:47 PM
Hi Kelly. Oblivious is a great title for this one. You have touched on many thoughts and feelings that many can relate to. To feel the power and freedom that comes with the encouragement that true friends can bring is wonderful. You have shared with us a great poem with words of wisdom that can touch the heart. A pleasure to read my friend.... Robert.
Deschler Avatar
January 1, 2015 at 10:41 PM
Hi Robert, I'm so glad you enjoyed my poem and found it relatable. It's nice to know that other people have gone through this and were also able to overcome it. Friendship can do wonders for us, maybe even more than we realize... I really appreciate your kind words. Thank you so much!
Nance Avatar
December 31, 2014 at 5:26 PM
Way to take the negative and make it positive, it is good to have a change, and hope for better days. Hugsxx
Deschler Avatar
January 1, 2015 at 10:11 PM
We have to make a change if we are ever going to be truly happy... I do appreciate your kind words, Casarah. Thank you so much! Hugs :)
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