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where did you get that that settle cruelty was it with you all the time does it make you royalty do you know what it feels like to be looked at with a frown a frown so pitiable it could chase you out of town i know what it feels like to be a ball and chain going places i have to go and bearing the look of shame the quietness is deafening and secretiveness screams your wishing me away every time you flip a coin it's "heads i win, tails you lose" one of the ingenious tools you use against my attempt to compromise when compromising is all the communication i have left your frowning me away ignoring me away and kind smiles to others driving me away i refuse to be your pain and don't accept the victimization of your destain it is your kingdom you can reign just one subject less and the rest remain but if time should come when feelings change them weep because what's changed has changed you've had your satisfaction only an empty box remains

Copyright © | Year Posted 2009




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Date: 3/2/2010 8:59:00 AM
So sorry John that I am behind in my reading of poems. This is a sad write but makes a good point. God Bless Phyl
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Date: 12/31/2009 4:36:00 PM
touching poem, enjoyed reading today
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Date: 12/26/2009 7:04:00 PM
That's so sad, John. I hope much better for you in the future. Good write.
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Date: 12/21/2009 10:48:00 PM
Yes John refuse to be Her pain,Refuse to be anybody's pain...you dont deserve pain cos your heart is warm and kind and your friendship carries royal blood..John,tnks for being a very good friend,I wish you a Blessed Xmas and a Happy New Year,,take Care..Charma
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Date: 12/20/2009 11:46:00 AM
great write john, enjoy your poems and thanks for your comments.
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Date: 12/19/2009 4:05:00 PM
Dear John, There are people in this world that take devotion for weakness. They are losers so don't give them a second thought. This can be difficult but you know your worth, so turn them loose! Peace and much love to you.
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Date: 12/19/2009 11:59:00 AM
I think it is like screaming in space,expressions we need to express but falling on def ears to those around us who can never really hear us, much less understand.It's lonliness of a kind average people could not possibly understand.
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Date: 12/19/2009 11:25:00 AM
keep writing.
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Date: 12/19/2009 11:13:00 AM
How wise you are not to "accept the victimization." Your feelings are expressed very well here, John, and I hope you are now with someone who fully appreciates you and does not view you as a "ball and chain." You deserve better! Much love, Carolyn
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Date: 12/19/2009 1:32:00 AM
Another vision of the same old rejection, John iii. Well done! Will we ever learn? Look before leaping. Still waters, deep! Greener grass. Let's appreciate the good in the plate before us. Looking elsewhere=Lose. Fix love with forgiveness... And that, my friend, is a whole new can of emotions. The empty box can be filled one good deed at a time. The depth of love can be increased by cherishing every little positive in partners. TO Dos: Say I'm sorry. NEVER go to sleep mad. Pray! Stay.
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Date: 12/18/2009 5:03:00 PM
enjoyed reading your poem, good write thanks for your comments.
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Date: 12/18/2009 4:46:00 PM
sad..but an excellent verse..very "telling" I think you might want subtle instead of settle linbe 2 Light & Love
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Date: 12/18/2009 1:30:00 PM
Hi John, Such a deeply heartfelt poem. My heart is with you. Love is taking all the good and bad together. It's sad when one is left out of the mix and the other for whatever reason feels the need to move on. But if the relationship is not a two way street then perhaps sometimes it's best to let go. Especially if you are being victomized. The holidays intensify all these feeling too. Hugs to you my friend. Power to you for writing this, keep your star shining bright! Take care, Love Light Patty
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Date: 12/18/2009 12:44:00 PM
My hope is that this isn't a reflection on what has happened, but it perhaps it is based on truth..please know that you are worthy, and too kind to let someone kick you around. Well written, John!~ Carrie
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Date: 12/18/2009 12:40:00 PM
Yes John I did read and I am one person that can empathise as my life has been about too much pain. I have had people use me, abuse me all for the sake of their thrill. I am moving on and am being judged but most for it. Get out if this is real and if you stay walled up I will understand, if you let love in I too will understand. Soup mail The Southern Belle
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Date: 12/18/2009 12:00:00 PM
Good poem. You have soup mail!!! It is in 2 parts because it was too long
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Date: 12/18/2009 11:56:00 AM
It was almost as the pages of a novel were being exposed, a novel of pain, and heartache...some people can jerk us around, and enjoy every minute of it...This could have been written about me, each line exposing the ugle truth of someone that loves to hurt......this was an awesome write, sad, but awesome as it revealed so much for the reader to feel.....always, Christy
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Date: 12/18/2009 11:31:00 AM
Interesting thoughts put to pen in this one. I hope that this is a topic and not a happening in your life. Keep the magical and creative pen flowing. Sara
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