John Loving Iii Poet I do not know?

Number Ten

where did you get that
that settle cruelty
was it with you all the time
does it make you royalty

do you know what it feels like
to be looked at with a frown
a frown so pitiable
it could chase you out of town

i know what it feels like 
to be a ball and chain
going places i have to go
and bearing the look of shame

the quietness is deafening
and secretiveness screams
your wishing me away

every time you flip a coin
it's "heads i win, tails you lose"
one of the ingenious tools you use
against my attempt to compromise
when compromising is all
the communication i have left

your frowning me away
ignoring me away
and kind smiles to others
driving me away

i refuse to be your pain
and don't accept the victimization
of your destain
it is your kingdom
you can reign
just one subject less
and the rest remain

but if time should come
when feelings change
them weep
because what's changed has changed
you've had your satisfaction
only an empty box remains

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Phyllis Babcock March 2, 2010 at 8:59 AM So sorry John that I am behind in my reading of poems. This is a sad write but makes a good point. God Bless Phyl

Doris Culverhouse December 31, 2009 at 4:36 PM touching poem, enjoyed reading today

Kim Hilliker December 26, 2009 at 7:04 PM That's so sad, John. I hope much better for you in the future. Good write.

Charmaine Chircop December 21, 2009 at 10:48 PM Yes John refuse to be Her pain,Refuse to be anybody's pain...you dont deserve pain cos your heart is warm and kind and your friendship carries royal blood..John,tnks for being a very good friend,I wish you a Blessed Xmas and a Happy New Year,,take Care..Charma

Jessica Arteaga December 20, 2009 at 11:46 AM great write john, enjoy your poems and thanks for your comments.

Audrey Haick December 19, 2009 at 4:05 PM Dear John, There are people in this world that take devotion for weakness. They are losers so don't give them a second thought. This can be difficult but you know your worth, so turn them loose! Peace and much love to you.

Jason Melton December 19, 2009 at 11:59 AM I think it is like screaming in space,expressions we need to express but falling on def ears to those around us who can never really hear us, much less understand.It's lonliness of a kind average people could not possibly understand.

Colleen Bono December 19, 2009 at 11:25 AM keep writing.

Carolyn Devonshire December 19, 2009 at 11:13 AM How wise you are not to "accept the victimization." Your feelings are expressed very well here, John, and I hope you are now with someone who fully appreciates you and does not view you as a "ball and chain." You deserve better! Much love, Carolyn

Dane Ann Smith-Johnsen December 19, 2009 at 1:32 AM Another vision of the same old rejection, John iii. Well done! Will we ever learn? Look before leaping. Still waters, deep! Greener grass. Let's appreciate the good in the plate before us. Looking elsewhere=Lose. Fix love with forgiveness... And that, my friend, is a whole new can of emotions. The empty box can be filled one good deed at a time. The depth of love can be increased by cherishing every little positive in partners. TO Dos: Say I'm sorry. NEVER go to sleep mad. Pray! Stay.

Doris Culverhouse December 18, 2009 at 5:03 PM enjoyed reading your poem, good write thanks for your comments.

Debbie Guzzi December 18, 2009 at 4:46 PM sad..but an excellent verse..very "telling" I think you might want subtle instead of settle linbe 2 Light & Love

P Sheart December 18, 2009 at 1:30 PM Hi John, Such a deeply heartfelt poem. My heart is with you. Love is taking all the good and bad together. It's sad when one is left out of the mix and the other for whatever reason feels the need to move on. But if the relationship is not a two way street then perhaps sometimes it's best to let go. Especially if you are being victomized. The holidays intensify all these feeling too. Hugs to you my friend. Power to you for writing this, keep your star shining bright! Take care, Love Light Patty

Carrie Richards December 18, 2009 at 12:44 PM My hope is that this isn't a reflection on what has happened, but it perhaps it is based on truth..please know that you are worthy, and too kind to let someone kick you around. Well written, John!~ Carrie

Ashe Kristy De La Keur Scoville December 18, 2009 at 12:40 PM Yes John I did read and I am one person that can empathise as my life has been about too much pain. I have had people use me, abuse me all for the sake of their thrill. I am moving on and am being judged but most for it. Get out if this is real and if you stay walled up I will understand, if you let love in I too will understand. Soup mail The Southern Belle

Ashe Kristy De La Keur Scoville December 18, 2009 at 12:00 PM Good poem. You have soup mail!!! It is in 2 parts because it was too long

Sara Kendrick December 18, 2009 at 11:31 AM Interesting thoughts put to pen in this one. I hope that this is a topic and not a happening in your life. Keep the magical and creative pen flowing. Sara