Numb Part 2
And left without realizing I understood nothing
I shrugged it off with a lump in my throat
I tripped and stumbled over to the countertop
And paused
An inkling of a memory grew in head
Like a new seedling pushing through the dirt
What happened to me?
I couldn’t have just been born
With this dreadful numbness
I can never remember a single thing
Memories were never clear
Only strange senses were there
Flashing, flashing light
It was too loud; everything was too loud
Crashing, and banging
Big, yellow adorned men
Could barely save me
I think?
I felt so close to this memory
Yet it was so distant
Darn, darn, darn, darn!
I was so close!
I couldn’t stand the feeling of
What could have been a breakthrough
That would explain why I was so broken
I made to the sink and
Poured a glass of water
The water didn’t look like glass this time
It was cool, slipping down my throat
But soon later my mouth felt like it was filled with sand
The lump in my back pocket buzzed
I pulled out my phone and the brightness of the screen
Stung my eyes
I quickly read the message on the screen and turned it off
It was from someone...someone named Axel
I recall the name and a blurry picture of their face
But I can’t really remember who he truly is
I ask my roommate, but all I can make out is that
He has brown hair and that he loves me
But I can’t remember, which is so very strange
All the memories of him are fuzzy and uncertain
I floated back to my bedroom to think
Everything was so confusing
Every memory was only a vague, dreamlike impression
All I wanted was to make myself feel grounded
But I just did not know how to do that
I fell asleep again
At least within my slumber I could pretend
My dreamlike symptoms were because of my dreams
Within my head as I slept,
In a way a screening of a movie played
Crashing, banging, stinging, ringing
Blood, so much blood
I couldn’t take the feelings
I couldn’t reach the full movie
Because every second was in blurry sepia
Then everything went dark.
My flat was buzzing with noise when I woke again
Loud, slurred music filled the space
Between the ever-growing chatter
My head felt heavy
As the strange, yet familiar dream
Swam through my thoughts; Confusing
When I turned my doorknob
All noise ceased
I shivered and opened the door
People sprang at me!
With a wobbly looking cake, bright lights
I yelled, but I grinned, because
A big, loud man picked me up and twirled me
Copyright © Nicole Resom | Year Posted 2019
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