Not Ready At All and Running Scared.

All my life I have been itching to be free Be let loose Let go But now, I'm not so sure I don't know what to do Just thinking about the day I become an adult Scares me How am I going to make it on my own? How will I survive with out my mom? She has always been there for me Always been by my side How am I going to do it without her I'll have to pay my own bills And go to work and school And College Its mind blowing I wish I hadn't already lived 18 years Half my life is gone And what do I have to show for it Scars and bad memories I wish I could restart my life from the beginning I feel like a goldfish in the ocean. I am not ready Not ready at all I'm tumbling into the ocean