No Story
For me there is no narrative,
no story within a story, no life story that
encompasses all stories.
When death comes
the narrative I have been retelling myself
will become a set of images,
a small bundle of moments,
a memory of a memory.
I recall killing a murdering bandit
chased him all over North Thailand,
The satisfaction of putting
two .22 Magnums slugs
into his head after he surrendered.
I could write a book about that,
detail and narrate, perhaps elaborate and fudge
all the circumstances that led to that moment,
but none of it matters
only the look in his eyes as the lights went out,
that’s the image that stays.
Of my first boyhood crush
only the one image remains,
her sour look seen through a teardrop.
My father holding his arms aloft
after the chemotherapy
A victory salute two days before he died
in the hospice.
Of course there are other images,
but there is no story worth reinventing.
Each image is a fractal an incomplete mosaic of a whole,
though clearer than any story
that could be set to paper
as a word-web of truth and fiction.
When all that matters is what we see
in a broken mirror
then that splintering will speak for us
not any story narrated
by our own
slyly embellishing ghost writer.
Copyright © Eric Ashford | Year Posted 2021
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