Never We

Forever I find myself amused by the person you are, Forever I find myself lost in thoughts of you, And forever I seek knowing you even more The first I saw you I was cardiac arrhythmic My heart pulled by gravity I felt myself vulnerable Having loved before I feared even talking to you for I believed I'd mess it up you came through, One too many times and I knew I had to say a word A word became an ocean of pure honesty and truth there I was loving you I told you first that I had fallen in love You always had an ideal woman in your head and sadly I wasn't We spoke on the phone, text and called one another till you finally disappeared another heartache to deal with Having had many of those I redirected my feelings not saying a word I kept it in Learning to redirect this love was yet another ache Settled for last just to have you in my life I still hope for a chance with you still I wait Unknowingly the love ran even deeper As a friend I sure do pause and freeze the times we spend together Your voice still tickles me Your laugh still calms me down and like the first we met, My heart still moonwalks and my mind blown Wish I had you with me on this trip Sailing the waters of the Atlantic with the love I so have to sustain us both but again, Sadly I'm not who you want to trip with I guess it's never we