Nervous Breakdown

I want to have a nervous breakdown but can't So what do I do instead nothing bc I can't even rant Rant and rave about this or that or how I feel Bc according to everyone else their problems are more of a big deal But what about me and how I feel or what I think But that don't matter to anyone else I just shrink But I have no choice to keep going and being ignored Please help me lord I love my family that's why I deal with everything by hiding it It's not a big deal to anyone else so here it is tongue bit