Need To Wake Up

One moment too late, a misconception what happened to a time well spent scorched by anger, bedeviled by sorrow, entombed by history One day was thought to be bad enough yet it expanded and a week was born dwelling on the past, perfect innocent happiness what I learned on when all else failed miserably Is this a game to nature why must you toy with me, break me into submission here take this knife and twist it into my spine so I know which side you're condemning to be on so I know which side you're getting your orders from so I know that'll you stab me in the back at any given opportunity if not just be on your way so I can continue my pointless journeys of chasing rivers upstream to see where they begin while everyone else in the world can see I'm just making revolutions in this maze I can't break free Does love mean anything anymore, I dare to dread not marriage is more like a chore than ever and that word itself has many levels from attic to basement floor now the world uses it as something more delirious, a scapegoat Everything is going downhill a fallout of a Wednesday falling away familiar emotions are the expressions of the day as I twist and contort, transform into a traditional wolf howling at the edge of my own little island for this the only place that could ever make me feel! ! ! ..... make me feel...better... but I'm never better...I'm never happy... I'm always alone...always...bitter... can someone please wake me up from this hallucination