Myself

I don’t know where I’m headed Nor do I know my future I’m not prepared to face my past And I don’t want to go back I’m tired of the love songs they sang to me When I was a child It’s time to let go of the teddy bear I’m not heart-broken Nor am I love-sick I just want to meet my inner self, where I belong I don’t want you back, and I don’t need Someone else to lead me to something wrong But these tears haunt me When I’m awake, when I’m asleep Even in my dreams Telling me I’m a demon, I’m a monster That I haven’t had enough, I’m striving for more I’m struggling, I want to kill This time it’s going to be me Who am I? I don’t know anyone, anything when I don’t know myself Death is my final punishment For all I’ve done, for my sins I couldn’t take it out of me When I look in the mirror All I see is skin and bones Not a heart beating out loud But I need to hold on I’m in a battle between myself and what I know I’m not the same person you’d have met a while ago I’m a mystery, a puzzle I haven’t been able to solve No one can, not even love But this battle, like any other, Must have a happy ending I can’t save myself anymore, got to take control In the morning I’ll open my eyes and see it’s gone But I won’t