My Reality

I’ve lived and I’ve loved or so I thought, came out broken, beaten and battered. A false embrace a kiss of lies, All loves games I bought. Tried to be just who I am, Not one would care to ease. Friends, family or chosen mate, Would bring me to my knees Shut my mouth to obstruct the blow, The Anger, fury and wrath, The Inevitable Invisible tears will follow Down the well known well lit path. Gone is my spirit my wings my will, Life no longer has meaning, only evil No reason for happiness, to laugh or smile The bruises will fade from a life so vile. I’ve tried to be strong, I’ve tried to endure, But the cracks in my heart are too deep to cure. Every smile forced, every tear unseen the battle recurs of a war routine Shrink to the floor to block the blows, The venom, the anger, the fury that grows The bruises they fade, but the pain never goes, I waste in the ashes feel my will decompose. A life once lived, a soul once whole, "lost in the darkness of my own swallowed soul" No hope for a future, no light in the dark, Just a lonely heart shattered, too broken to spark.