My Own Goodbye

As it takes me in and swallows me whole, It can take my body but it can't take my soul, When i find my inner peace, i'll be the one to take control, And once I retain it i won't ever let it go, The bliss of comfort impels me to last, I desire to undergo great ecstasy such as I have in the past, But there is a barrier that enables me to see through the haze surrounding me, I have no halo to light my way, and this is a place i sure as hell don't want to stay, I'm not sure if it's real, maybe it's a dream, I cut myself to find it flows a steady stream, A dream may feel real but this i know is not, Because as the rush of adrenaline surges through me, the blood on my skin feels hot, The agonizing pain devours me without graze, Which soon enough forces me into my own delusion without my say of pace, I want something to raise me up, instead of force me down, Because once temptation takes me in, six feet under's the only place i'll be found