My One and Only Better Half

Sitting here in the darkness, To afraid to even speak, My heart sunk into my chest, My body felt so weak, Grabbed by the back of my head, Thrown down two flights of stairs, Punch over and over in my stomach, But still you only see a blank stare, Nothing but silence, As I'm dragged acrossed the floor, The only thing thats going threw my head, Is what would happen if I try and race to the door, He grabbed his weight belt, Hitting me in the back as hard as he could, I laid there taking the beating, Just like every other night I would, But this time it was different, I was laying in a puddle of blood, I seen him take off running, He even slipped in fell in the mud, I finally got some relief knowing, that my beating finally ended, But I didnt know this was going to happen, This is not what I intended, I was rushed to the hospital that night, Gave birth when I was only fifteen, 7 months old lived for 36 minutes, His lungs started to crash his breathing was unseen, The hardest day of my life, Was holding my child in my arms, Knowing that he didnt deserve this, He deserved no harm, I blamed myself for many years, Screaming why didn't I fight back? I guess the thought of not knowing, It what I really lacked, I think of him often, How peaceful he shall be, Thats the happiest feeling a mother can have, To have her son be happy and free.