My Heartache Went With You

MY HEARTACHE WENT WITH YOU The short sweet moment I had with you a week before you passed, brought me contentment for it made me feel our hearts touched and we finally connected and bound. We were alone in your room when I said “I am here” and I caressed you, running my hand through your hair, touching your face, your shoulders, your arms and held your hand. Our hands locked for a while and when I was leaving, I told you “I love you” and you looked at me and said “I love you too” and my heart was filled with ease. You and I knew, you treated me differently and you never told me why that I gave up asking and let go. Although I never gave up showing my love for you. I visited you three more times before you passed and each time, I never had a chance to be alone with you. My last moment with you was with all my siblings. Surrounded by all my siblings, I was standing by your bed, touched and looked at you and said, “I love you” and you just looked at me and kept looking without saying anything. My heart ached for you said “I love you too” to my siblings and I did not understand why you could not say that to me in front of them, clearly treating me differently than them. The pang, the pain pierced my heart and I walked away. Two days later, you were gone and I could not shed a tear. My heart ached more for I wanted to cry and I could not. As a loving daughter, I worked on your memorial service for I could not let the hurt, ache, pain prevent me from making sure everything was according to your wishes. Six days before memorial service, in our siblings’ meeting, one of my sisters told me that you did not give me anything for I could afford what I want and I could be on my own. I was the last person to see and be with you in the chapel. I touched your face, your hand and took off my mask, kissed my hand and put it on your mouth and said “I love you”. I put my mask back on, touched your hand and said “goodbye”. I never shed a tear, I looked at you one last time and although I would never understand you; I left my heartache with you. 5/8/21 All Yours (May 9) Poetry Brian Strand 4/23/21 Writing Prompt - Ache - Poetry Constance La France Used: PS Grammar Checker