My Heart Submitted To No One

My heart submitted to no one, A completion of self with another was a fight to shame a proud mother And still as the waves crash against the rocks, You sway against me, push upon me- rough and waylay My rough edges are flattened by the fire of your foam Intriguing droplets- molecules of mental, murderous muse I scream inside, delighted--affrighted, by your hearteous sight Numbing the tingles that used to tantalize my mind And still, I held on to what I was made for To push away, to shy away, to stay...and to adore A companion with no dominion upon a wafted shore The sun often beats heavily on me when your tides are low It is as if the love you so passionately offer is all for show Only to descend into the sands of "NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE" I bid a strong goodbye to the hardened, rough surface of my bind It is time you see my smoother sides-- where the sun sets straight behind For though you were rough against me and over me still... Your calmer tides have scorched my pride and mellow-drained my will My heart submitted to no one Not even to God Still in past tense do I blame the one and only sun The sun that beat on me day by day with passion in its rays Sets behind and still I'm blind to the hope of better days...