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My Heart Is Heavy

My heart is heavy... heavy with memories of your booming laughter your mischievous twinkling eyes and your engaging banter My heart is heavy... heavy with hope that this is not the end that I'll see you again in that sweet never ending day My heart is heavy... heavy with love love for my father's brother my second father a man of faith dedication and service My heart is heavy... heavy with sorrow heavy with a subdued joy for death is not the end... not for those who believe those who grieve will be comforted.... My heart is heavy... heavy with the promise of resurrection morn where I will see you not bedridden not lost in Alzheimer's confusion but young and strong remade in His image My heart is heavy... My heart is light... "O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?" (I Corinthians 15: 55-57) The righteous perish, and no one takes it to heart; the devout are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil. 2 Those who walk uprightly enter into peace; they find rest as they lie in death. (Isaiah 57: 1 & 2)

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Paul Callus

Date: 5/13/2017 10:12:00 AM

Losing loved ones is always bound to leave its mark, Eileen. And each new sad experience opens the scars of previous ones. There is consolation for those who believe in His love and an afterlife. This poem is emotional, touching, and leaves us feeling serene even in loss. Hugs // paul

Akkina Downing

Date: 5/4/2017 3:40:00 PM

Eileen this is such a beautiful write, and I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll say a prayer for you and your family tonight. God bless you... Hugs :)

James Inman

Date: 5/3/2017 9:05:00 AM

Eileen, beautiful thoughts and a beautiful poem. My wife went through some very mixed emotions with the passing of her father who slowly withered away as she cared for him some years ago. My empathy goes out to you.

Jerry T Curtis

Date: 4/29/2017 6:17:00 AM

Another wonderful write---for me you are terrific at free verse

Eileen Manassian
Date: 5/1/2017 11:08:00 PM

Thanks, Jerry. I used to write a lot more in free verse. This poem about my uncle seemed to need that form. Appreciate the visit.

Joanna Daniel

Date: 4/28/2017 8:37:00 AM

This is such a profound write, Eileen:) May God comfort you during this time of loss! A soothing write to all who have experienced loss:) my heartfelt condolences!

Eileen Manassian
Date: 5/1/2017 11:13:00 PM

Thank you, dear Jo. I'm back from the funeral. It was a very difficult time and yet, it was a blessed time as well. Bonding again with relatives I haven't seen for a long time was good. Sending hugs

Charmaine Chircop

Date: 4/27/2017 3:53:00 PM

Oh dear Eileen when a friend of mine is sad...Somehow I feel sad too...but when a friend is a believer in God..My believe and her's together will keep us strong.May God comfort you in these moments dear...Your loved ones too.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 5/1/2017 11:16:00 PM

Thanks, my lovely friend. It does help to have a hope in a better life to come. It eases the sorrow. Thank you for being such a wonderful caring friend. You know your place in my heart, my sweet.

Carl Fraser

Date: 4/26/2017 12:43:00 PM

This is such a magnificent and honest write Eileen. You take us from loss to grief to mourning to comfort and finally peace and joy that only Gods almoghty spirit can give. Excellent. A 7. Blessings Carl

Eileen Manassian
Date: 5/1/2017 11:21:00 PM

Yes, Carl. Paul does admonish us not to mourn like the rest of the world does, for they do not have hope in the resurrection morn. Thank you for your kind comment. It is much appreciated, dear.

Connie Marcum Wong

Date: 4/25/2017 11:58:00 PM

Eileen, your poem is beautifully written with comforting faith and love. I am so sorry for your loss. Blessings, Connie : ) 7

Eileen Manassian
Date: 5/1/2017 11:26:00 PM

Thank you for your kind words, dear. It's always hard to lose a loved one, even when they are sick and frail. God knows what's best. I know my Uncle is free from the confines of his bed now. I appreciate your visit.

Maurice Yvonne

Date: 4/24/2017 6:40:00 PM

G_d bless us all. No words for your loss. Respectfully I will add this to my favs as a positive action. Lots Of Love, armand.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 5/1/2017 11:33:00 PM

You are....and have always been...a kind soul, Maurice. Thank you for reaching out. It means a lot to me. I'm better now. Went through a particularly rough patch, but it was good to be with family during this time. Hugs

Maurice Yvonne
Date: 4/24/2017 6:41:00 PM

I hope you're ok.

Constance La France

Date: 4/24/2017 6:01:00 PM

Eileen, I am so sorry for your loss. You have penned a beautiful tribute to your second father who is smiling down on you today, A7~

Eileen Manassian
Date: 5/1/2017 11:57:00 PM

Thank you, dear Broken Wings. I appreciate the time you took to read this poem and post a comment. It gives me comfort to know my Uncle is no longer bedridden or in any sort of pain. Blessings

Ravi Sathasivam

Date: 4/24/2017 1:04:00 AM

Excellent. Great and touching tribute. A prayer is sent to you family and let your writing gives you peace.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 5/2/2017 12:02:00 AM

Thank you, Ravi. It did help to write about it. I was able to attend the funeral in Germany. Being with family gave me added comfort. This is life. While we live, we will experience the death of our loved ones. I appreciate your visit.

Lisa Ricci

Date: 4/23/2017 5:34:00 AM

Hello Eileen. I turned to this entry not knowing what I would read when turning the page. I am sorry for your loss. Your words express the entire emotions of it all. Your tribute states your uncle was man of substance. May your writing give you peace at this time.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 5/2/2017 12:10:00 AM

Dear Lisa...my writing did help me deal with the emotions that were flowing within my heart. Yes, my Uncle was a man of substance. I was touched by the tributes given during the service. I'm glad he was remembered fondly. I await a better day. Hugs

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 4/22/2017 9:15:00 PM

Thinking of you, hugs Rick. A prayer sent out to you and your family.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 4/23/2017 12:57:00 AM

Thanks, dear. It will be good to know that a friend is interceding on our behalf. Hugs

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 4/22/2017 8:06:00 PM

wow, Eileen, you outdid yourself with this one. Wonderful tribute and I love what you say about death in the end and changing heavy heart to light. Awesome scripture quotes too. SEVEN

Eileen Manassian
Date: 4/23/2017 12:58:00 AM

A seven from you is high praise indeed, Andrea. Thank you. I'm thinking of reading a poem at the funeral. I hope that I can honor his memory well. Blessings

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 4/21/2017 7:56:00 AM

What a beautiful and poignant dedication to your uncle. So sorry for your loss, but I am glad you possess the knowledge that death is not the Victor. Hugs Rick.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 4/22/2017 1:04:00 PM

Thanks, Richard. I'll be traveling to Germany for the funeral this Thursday night. It will be a difficult time for all the Manassian clan, but we will focus on the promise given to us in Christ. Blessings.

Eve Roper

Date: 4/20/2017 8:14:00 PM

This is so touching and beautiful your art in writing amazes me. Hugs beautiful lady

Alexis Y.

Date: 4/20/2017 3:28:00 PM

Hi Eileen, What a loving and touching tribute piece to your dear uncle. This was a tear jerker. I am so sorry for your loss. As you so skillfully wrote " Death is not the end for who believe."My heart goes out you and your family in your time of sorrow- Alexis

Maria Williams

Date: 4/20/2017 7:37:00 AM

Beautiful poem Eileen, saying goodbye is such a hard thing to do, but revel in the thought that now he is Free. A 7

Chuck Melugin

Date: 4/20/2017 6:56:00 AM

Eileen, sad goodbyes are so heart wrenching. You wrote it to the nines! One thing for sure...there will be a reunion! If you haven't already, google the song lyrics entitled "Sweet Beulah Land". I've learned the melody on the harmonica and can't keep from playing it. Sharing your sorrow, chuck

Chris Green

Date: 4/19/2017 4:37:00 PM

Such a lonely and sad poem that is written so beautifully that it in one way makes me smile and in the other tear up. Nicely expressed Eileen

Eileen Manassian
Date: 4/20/2017 12:56:00 AM

Thank you, Chris. I lost my uncle on Good Friday last week while on holiday in Cyprus. In the midst of life, we are in death...thanks for the visit.

Ilene Bauer

Date: 4/19/2017 4:15:00 PM

you've beautifully expressed your anguish at the deterioration of someone who has meant so much to you. i feel your pain and sorrow very powerfully here, eileen.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 4/20/2017 12:58:00 AM

Yes, Ilene....though my uncle was sick, his death hit me harder than I thought it would. I can understand that death is welcome for some...but it's hard to say goodbye. Thank you for your kind comment.

Tim Smith

Date: 4/19/2017 3:59:00 PM

So very sad but beautifully written Eileen.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 4/20/2017 1:00:00 AM

Thank you, Tim....Kind of you to visit.

Jan Allison

Date: 4/19/2017 3:37:00 PM

My heart is heavy reading your lines Eileen:-( to see someone deteriorate with dementia is so difficult to bear.. death is almost a welcome relief at the end. I am sure you will be reunited one day:-) hugs Jan xx

Eileen Manassian
Date: 4/20/2017 1:01:00 AM

Thanks, sweetie. I'm tired of losing people I love...Yes, God knows everything, and I need to hold on to the hope of the reunion day when Jesus comes again. Sending hugs