My Fight

I fear confrontation. But i'm in love with temptation. His dark chocolate self makes me want to let him pierce a hole below my naval. I fear being played. I'm in actor yet I fear being staged. I don't want this to turn into some childish game. This isn't some freezbie your tossing it's my heart and it will break like glass being thrown at a cop. there would be not turning back. My heart would be jailed. In actuality my body would be free. But the insides of my soul would be crispy like crown fried chicken with gravy. I fear confrontation. Yet everyone's telling me this is my fight. They say i'm either in it to win it or I should quit pretending i'm with it. So many insecurities sink me below. My lip gloss is popping, but I don't have a shot in hell if I don't think i'm popping as well. Every step I go I think about stopping. He won't choose me. So why keep rocking? I feel like this is my biggest test of all. I fear confrontation. But I crave all these sensations when he's involved. This is my fight. This is a pivotal moment in my history. She ain't always gonna be wifey. I will see to it. By the end of this I will gain victory.