My Fault

It's my fault but I’ll never 
Get that chance to kneel
By your bedside and pray with you
Never to tuck you in and lay
With you till you run off to 
Meet Mr. Sandman
You made me this
Poetic soul yet 
You’ll never get to inherit 
This daddy's poetic soul

It’s my fault but I’ll never 
Be able to hold your hand
On the first day of preschool
And beg you not to cry
Cause daddy will be right back
Now mommy and I won’t ever
Lay on our backs
Under moonlight with you
And point out those twilights 
Or two days later put that first 
Dollar from the tooth fairy

It’s my fault that you’re 
Not here right now
If only I found the 
Courage to build a time 
Machine will take us back 
And I’ll get to hear that first cry
Skinned knees and all
All the “he’s getting tall”

It’s my fault that I won’t 
Ever take your graduation 
Pictures or that you won’t be 
At mine cause you were supposed 
To be written into my plans
But weren't I just stained
My hands and let you die ask 
God to forgive your daddy
For you not being here
I know it’s my fault
Copyright © | Year Posted 2006

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