My Dream Girl

As i sit back and think, If i wake up and blinked, And i would realize, How close you've pushed me to the brink, Yet i stand strong, Risked it all for you, And written all of this damn songs, Just for you to put them on stop, And tell me how loving you was wrong, I guess you enjoyed the pain that i felt, Slowly driving me insane, And speeding up my heart, Because to you it's just a game, Even though, i would have showered you with love, Like a lonely flower in the rain, You shoved me under the dirt, But as long as i was still you nutrients, I honestly couldn't complain, So i laid lowest Like i tried to get serious too fast, So i got played slow, We weren't together, But i want my love for you, To be something that they know, But love for me is something that you ain't show, That makes you hurt me But i was still there whenever you need me, Cause, I could picture me leaving you, And i could imagine you leaving me, So as much as it hurts me, I tried to use my love to be a friend, Even though it weakened me on the outside, And it was killing me from within, And i did my best to be a friend to you, You claimed to be a friend to me, But my heart interfered, With all the pain involved, It felt like you were more of any enemy, Then it reached a point where it was too much for me to bear, And i had too much love for you, It seemed like you didn't care, So we held on with one hand, And we pushed away with the other, Now I'm torn between love and hate, Because we can't be friends, And we can't be lovers Now, am wondering What it's gonna be, Because I'm the right guy for you, But it seems like you're the wrong girl for me, As far as the damages go, We can use whatever's left of my heart to pay the fee, I love you my dream girl, Will have to close my eyes just to see