My Dark Life

I know it’s wrong to ask but why me? What have I done? I can't really see, But you make it so easy for me to think evil, So easy to make me be friends with the devil, So dark is my mind now, it makes the black hole seems like the sun, Nothing but darkness, evil, hatred, anger, all except fun, If I was to listen to my mind, I would be now hanging from a tree, That would be less painful than life, I would just be free, If the world was to supposedly end, I would die knowing that my life can't be mend, If only you were in the place I am in, U would see that all in my vision is sin, The thoughts in my head should be illegal to think, So to kill the thoughts, pull the trigger at my head, don't blink, Because if u do, you'll probably miss, And that would leave in this deep dark abyss, It makes no more sense of my tears to let you see, I would just leave this life and let you all be, But there's just one spot of light in my life, And it’s my lover, the one to make my wife, If it wasn't for her I would now be dead, Laying in a coffin resting my head, She is the only thing I am living for, But the house of darkness in my life, she can't close the door......