My Dad's Mistress

Loveliness and grace
were the improper virtues
of a deceitful woman,
who would constantly use
them to seduce a married man...
that was my dad's mistress.


The holiest of women,
bearing through silence
much undeserved pain;
and love her children 
she did without visible signs...
unable to toss the destiny's dice.


Dad's heart was defiled by lust,
and still expected mother's trust,
once he slapped me hard
for my rebellious attitude...
he knew his child suspected cheating,
when, most nights, he saw him fleeing. 


Cuddled in a blanket on the marble floor
shivering not with cold, but with fear,
I waited for dad when everybody was asleep;
inside that big house I didn't feel secure,
it was a prince's castle hunted by ghosts...
and they attempted to grab me by their arms.
 

And because I resembled daddy a lot:
confident, virile, strong with the looks of a charmer;
I feared I would have become him and cared less,
without self-affection, sharing a wife and a lover...
and to stop the cycle, I would have kept my sexiness intact,
even thinking of joining the priesthood to avenge my dad's mistress. 


Copyright 2009 by Andrew Crisci
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Golden Avatar
November 22, 2009 at 11:19 PM
Andrew, I admire you for putting this out there; a heartwrenching, soul-baring write. You see the mistakes of your father. You do not have to be destined to repeat them. Working it out on paper, tossing it over in words...those things help. Hugs, Donna
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November 22, 2009 at 2:02 PM
I am so sorry for the pain you went through, Andrew. Many of us share that pain. Please keep on writing about your feels until the ghosts are expelled! Happy Thxngiving! Love and Peace, Audrey.
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November 22, 2009 at 11:05 AM
sad indeed, People don't realize the hurt they cause to there family at times- even idle words hurt.
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November 22, 2009 at 10:32 AM
It must have been difficult growing up in such an atmosphere, Andrew, and I'm not surprised you thought of joining the priesthood. God bless you for rising above it all! A very moving, heartfelt write. Love, Carolyn
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