My Broken Life

My Broken Life All my life I have been running from the sting of the knife My Dad never provided enough Which eventually just made me tough As a child I was wild I didn’t know what was right And always got into fights On the street I had to stay on my feet And be careful for however I meet Most of the time there were guns And I would have to run My Dad was so bad It made me sad You see; he was on drugs And all I ever wanted was a stupid hug! I felt like I had to run a mile Just to see if he could make Mom smile I could see the lies in his eyes All I ever wanted was to lie in bed and cry I got abused left confused and bruised And I wanted to do was blow a fuse My Dad didn’t hurt me just a tad It made me so mad But I was too scared of the horrors Behind my bedroom door I never left it because I knew my father was in dept And never to except I was there Just to listen to him be mad and swear There was no food on the table anyways Because my Dad was stuck in his drunk daze My life was something I thought I couldn’t fix Only at the age of six Then one day my Dad got fired And Mom was sick and tired of being with him And in bed I laid I overheard my Mom say she was not going to stay And was going her separate way My heart started to rapidly pump And I felt like I just hit a big bump I thought life wasn’t fair And my armor that I wore just tore It was so sad watching her walk out that door So now a days when I hear my father’s name It brings me pain and shame So my life just broke I tripped over the rope And started to smoke loosing hope I didn’t have a dime my mind was lost in time But then everything changed when I wrote down that rhyme I started to win no more sin just had my mind and my pen My life started to happen and then I was rap’ in Then before you know I was behind that curtain ready to put on a show Everything was working No more hurting. I would take my bow And live for the now