My Baby

A gift like no other gift, one that can't be bought a precious human being, deserving the right to live to exist as we all do, but sometimes it just doesn't happen that way, A baby of no harm, a baby of no sins a baby of pure love, and only innocence Tender moments, carrying wishes disappointments, everyday misses Sitting there all alone, even though I was surrounded, by others While wondering, why it may be that I am made to suffer, Wanting nothing more, but to die inside and out, Things happen for a reason, so I was taught I'll never know the reason, but I'll always feel the loss The loss of my child, my baby was taken away from me, and there is no reason I constantly ask myself, why did this happen? what did I do wrong? I asked God to save my baby, to protect us both I remain here, but my baby is gone It seems as if, my whole world, just fell apart and all I could do, was sit back and watch it happen I found myself, feeling lonely needing someone, anyone to hold me All I could do was cry, I had to cry, for the sake of myself for the sake of my baby, for the sake of my heart I had to weep I cried and cried aloud, hoping to be heard please father, I'll do whatever you want you have my word, just please save my baby I bled so much, had so much pain denied to myself, everything would be okay Crying and pleading, praying and weeping became an everyday routine, it was so hard to believe this was happening to me, It's not over yet, it never will be everyday and every night, it's in my memory... (March 1998) My sweet baby you will always be with me...