MY ASSASSINS MY OWN SUICIDE SOLILQUY LINCOLNS HOME SPRINGFIELD ILLINOIS

MY ASSASIN HIDDEN OUT OF SIGHT AWAITS ME TO LEAVE MY HOME AT WHICH TIME SHE POINCE RIPPING PAGES ON MY NIGHT STAND SCRATCHING THE LOCKS ON OUR DOOR MY DISABLED FAMILY PANICS AT FIRST REALIZING THIS ASSASIN HAS BEEN ASSIGNED TO MY MURDER OVER 20 YEARS NOW COMING TO FIMISH THE JOB PEEKING THROUGH WINDOW BLINDS LOOKING THROUGH AN ASSAULT RIFLE WATCHING OUR EVERY MOVEMENT CAMERA INSTALLED IN THE SMOKE DETECTORS LISTENING DEVICES IN THE AC VENTS SOMETIMES I COULD HEAR HER CAT AT NIGHT MY DISABLE HUSBAND STANDS UNDER THE VENT TOYING WITH IT AS I SAY HONEY PLEASE COME TO BED HE TELLS ME SH LISTEN CAN'T YOU HEAR THE CAT IN THE VENT I LISTEN QUIETLY FINALLY CALLS MY 80 YEAR OLD MOM WHEN A VOICE YELLS I'M GOING TO KILL THAT BEE MY SAYS WHO WAS THAT MY STALKER MOM SHE SOUNDS DANGEROUS THAT SHE IS WHY SHE ARRIVED IN A TAHOE WAVING A 9MM 20 YEARS AGO ACCOMPANIED BY RASTA ANDREW IN THE EVENT OF MY DEATH PLEASE FIND MY KILLERS THIS HAS CAUSED SUCH STRESS I'D PLANNED TO END MY OWN LIFE TO STOP HER ASSASSINATION THREATS ON LICENSE PLATES FROM HYUNDAI CHEVROLET SHE HIDES OUT WITH CIRO GARGANO THE ARSON MURDER OF 9 PERSON BITTER AFTER ALL THESE YEARS MY WEARING WIRES PREGNANT BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FOR THE FBI CONVICTING OVER 30 PERSONS AND 28 ISLANDERS ACTUALLY 60 PERCENT OF DRUG SALES CEASED DRUGS SOLD BY COPS BUT THIS RESULTED IN CIRO HIRING HITMEN TO END MY LIFE JAY TOWNSEND JOHNSON HENRY JAMAICAN DEALERS WAS TO IMPERSONATE ME IN ORDER TO OBSTRUCT JUSTICE IN THOSE MURDERS SHE BECAME OBSESSED WITH MY POETRY MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND GARGANO ACCOMPLICE IN VICTIM NUMBER 9 THIS RESULTED IN SEVERAL ATTEMPTS ON MY LIFE RIGHT NOW I'M VERY VERY ILL AFIB IRREGULAR HEART BEATS DAYTIME SLEEP APNEA TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY ANXIETY DISORDER DEPRESSIVE DISORDER SEVERE CHRONIC ASTHMA CHRONIC PTSD SEVERE TRAUMATIC HEADACHES PARTIAL BLINDNESS SEVERE CHRONIC NERVE PAIN DISORDER SHOCKING I'M STILL ALIVE AND WRITING ONLY TO PREVENT THEM FROM BREAKING INTO MY HOME TO READ MY WRITING SO I WRITE HERE ON THIS POETRY SIGHT WHERE IT ALL BEGAN IDENTITY FRAUD OVER MY AMERICAN POETRY I REPORTED TO THE FBI PLEADED FOR DEAR LIFE AS MY DEATH WAS PLOTTED AND CARRIED OUT ONLY I SURVIVED MY OWN MURDERS INCLUDING A CAR BOMB BROKEN INJURED TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURED I WAS FORGOTTEN LEFT BEHIND ENEMY LINES PURE HUMAN SUFFERING WHILE CIRO EMBEZZLED MY LIFE THREATENING MY LIFE EVERY SINGLE DAY I CAN'T ALLOW CIRO AND JAY TOWNSEND JOHNSON HENRY TO MURDER ME SO I'VE BEGGED GOD TO ALLOW ME INTO HEAVEN AFTER TAKING MY OWN LIFE HE RESPONDED SWIFTY YES TO KILL MYSELF TO PREVENT MURDERS FROM KILLING ME FOR HIS NAME SAKE THAN I CAN ENTER HEAVEN AFTER KILLING MYSELF MY ASSASINS SHALL SUFFER GRAVENESS I GET TO WATCH FROM HEAVEN WHAT A GLORIOUS VIEW I AM TRULY BLESSED THAT I SURVIVED MY OWN ASSASSINATION ATTEMPTS REALIZING PERHAPS I DESERVE TO DIE MY GOD I WORE WIRES PREGNANT BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FROM CORRUPTION JUNK SICK COPS DEALERS KILLERS CONVICTING GANG LEADERS WHILE MY UNBORN CHILD TREMBLE INSIDE MY WOMB FEARING DEATH I STILL HEAR THE FETUS HEART BEAT DEEP DOWN I AM FOREVER ON THE FRONTLINE LEFT BEHIND ENEMY LINES HOLDING A GRENADE WRITING WAITING ON MY KILLERS TO ARRIVE SO THAT I COULD PULL THE PIN AND END MY OWN LIFE YOU SEE I FINALLY REALIZE NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME AND NO ONE IS COMING TO SAVE ME FROM THESE KILLERS AND DEALERS I CONTACTED THE FBI 2003 CIRO AND THE JAMAICAN DRUG SMUGGLERS PLANTED AT MY TOWNHOME GUNS POINTED AT MY HEAD I BELIEVE THE FBI FOUND ME TOO EMOTIONALLY BROKEN SUFFERING SEVERE PTSD ANXIETY MENTAL ILLNESS EMOTIONALLY CRIPPLED AFRAID OF MY OWN SHADOW HIDING BEHIND MAROON DRAPES WRITING POETRY I WAS LIVING DEAD ALREADY UNABLE TO CARE FOR MYSELF ESPECIALLY AFTER THE BRAIN TRAUMA I BELIEVE THIS LED CIRO GARGANO ON HIS TWISTED PLOT TO IMPERSONATE ME WITH JAMAICAN DEALERS JAY TOWNSEND JOHNSON HENRY IT STILL MAKES ME VOMIT 20 YEARS LATER THE ANNIVERSARY OF THE MURDER SHE ARRIVED BACK WITH GARGANO THREATS TERRORIST THREATS ON LICENSE PLATES I FEEL LIKE I'M IN TURKEY LIBYA JORDAN HOLDING THIS GRENADE THAT READS PROPERTY FEDERAL BUREAU OF INVESTIGATION ARLINGTON HEIGHTS ILLINOIS WIRES STILL WRAPPED AROUND MY UNBORN CHILD I'M STILL OUT HERE BROKEN CRIPPLED DISABLED WRITING LETTERS BACK HOME ON POETRY SOUP COURAGE IS ONLY IN COPING WITH MENTAL ILLNESS I SUFFERED AS A RESULT OF WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI I BELIEVE THISE HATES HATE ME SECRETLY THEY WANT THESE KILLERS TO MURDER ME THE ORGANIZED CRIME CRIMINAL CORRUPTION THAT THEY INVESTIGATED ARRIVED TO BLOW MY BRAINS OUT THE ARSON MURDERER OF 8 THE FBI WARNED MY LIFE WAS IN DANGER WEARING WIRES PREGNANT BUYING WEAPON AND DRUGS FROM JUNK SICK OFFICERS WOULD SAVE MY LIFE MY KIDS LIVES FROM GARGANO GOD ONLY KNEW HE'D KILL AGAIN AND PARK AT MY DOOR BLACKMAILING MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND FINALLY BLOWING UP MY SKULL WITH A CAR BOMB BECAUSE I CONTACTED THE FBI IN FORT MYERS I WAS AFRAID GARGANO EMBEZZLED THE ENTIRE TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY CLAIM FUNDING JAY TOWNSEND JOHNSON HENRY JAMAICAN DEALERS BUT SHE BECAME OBSESSED WITH MY POETRY ATTEMPTED TO IMPERSONATE ME PLOTTING MY DEATH AGAIN SO HERE I SIT WITH A HANDGRENADE MY OWN SUICIDE PLAN TO END MY LIFE BEFORE THE KILLERS REACH ME DESTROYING ALL THE DATA STORED IN MY BRAIN SECRETS STORED FROM MY WEARING WIRES PREGNANT BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FROM JUNK SICK OFFICERS ISLANDERS DEALERS KILLERS I HAVE TO WRITE EVERY DAY OR I AM AFRAID MY BRAIN WILL DISSOLVE FOR YEARS I HID FROM KILLERS WONDERING HOW WILL THEY KILL ME GUN SHOT POISON CAR CRASH I SURVIVED THOSE ATTEMPTS THERE IS ONKY ONE WAY TO BE FREE FROM CIRO GARGANO THAT IS TO KILL MYSELF MY PRAYERS ARE WITH MY FAMILY MY MOMMY MY CHILDREN AND GRAND CHILDREN REMEMBER I WOULD RATHER END MY OWN LIFE THAT HAVE GARGANO HARM MY FAMILY TO GET TO ME HOLDING THE HAND GRENADE TO MY CHEST WHEN THAT TIME COMES I'LL KNOW ALL PRAISE TO GOD FOR HE IS THE MERCIUFUL ONE GOD BLESS THE FEDERAL BUREAU OF INVESTIGATION ARLINGTON HEIGHTS ILLINOIS GOD BLESS AMERICA