Msunderstood

Day after day Symptom after symptom I go through this feeling of loneliness Irritability Snappiness Anger Depression Unhappiness Sadness, as tears roll down my face I can’t believe eight years has passed Seems like life has gotten harder Slowly things crashed In my head, my life is still the same But life has recently taught me That this is not me anymore You’re different now You have to grasp it A flood of tears run down my face A disability has taken over This isn’t me, is this my life? Is it me? Or is it the world around me? Running fast in my mind But moving as slow as a sloth in reality Am I still beautiful? Am I still a good mom? Am I still worthy? Confusion sets in I’m speaking but I’m not heard My words come out Sense is not made Judgment of who I am now Arguments and aggravation overcome me Feeling stupid and dumb Are negative feelings who I have become? Memory loss Mistakes Vision problems Loss of mobility Loss of appetite Depression and anxiety This has become me! I don’t want it anymore I wish this pain was like garbage, I can bag it up and toss it but at the end of the day this is real life and I am MS-understood!!!