Mr Irrelevant

Mr. Irrelevant I've lived through a lot of tragedy in my lifetime And the lines mark my face making it appear old With a grimace my eyes open each lonely morning As the grey cloudy sky appears in my window frame The birds are chirping and there are no cars on the road It's a silent wasteland of uncaring abandonment I sit up on my bed and wipe the sleepiness from my eyes Remembering the dream that I had awoken from It was her, it was always her, invading my thoughts For not even in my last sanctuary can I escape her I try to let the thoughts play themselves out until they die But they refuse to leave and instead simply rewind This is a loneliness that I should be familiar with Since it was merely two years ago when I felt it last It's not fair that I've been broken by the same person twice Who left me in a bleak void to pick up the remnants I walk to the bathroom and gaze at myself in the mirror Bloodshot eyes greet me and I cringe- Is that really me? My complexion is pallid and I can tell I was crying in the night Letting the emotions out in a realm where nobody can see They say history repeats itself because we never learn from the past But perhaps now I've finally learned the lesson of a lifetime