Moving On

I'm not selling a house, i'm leaving my home. Happy times together, months spent alone. Morning sickness, baby loss, labour and birth Planting my seeds in good strong earth. Mess in the kitchen, prams in the hall Mud on the carpet, pen on the wall; First we were two, then 3, 4 and 5 Not forgetting the pets, no longer alive. Babies then toddlers, starting to talk, Rolling, crawling then learning to walk. Feeding my firstborn at 5 in the morning, Here comes the milkfloat, a new day is dawning. The scent of lavendar in warm summer air Makes me think of that first one, big eyes and brown hair. Planting some snowdrops in a place cool and shady Done just in time for that quick second baby. Yellow peony in May for the one that was lost Daffodils and hyacinths for the boy who came last. Tantrums and tears, sometimes theirs, often mine Sleepsuits and socks on the long washing line. Apples and raspberries, potatoes and herbs Hunting for woodlice, new homes for worms. Deep winter snow piling up at the door Morning sun in the garden, it's spring once more. So now we are going, new adventures to come But i'm not selling a house, i'm leaving my home. 7th april 2018