Mothers mistake

Mother's mistake She didn't get a remake Had me Wasn't much to see Kinda slow So many things I wanted to know Places I wanted to go Put aside Always cried I was grown No love shown Tried to do good But was always misunderstood Never had a thing Happiness it could never bring Me myself and I Times I have wanted to die I wish I could fly Lost inside So I hide Darkness closes in I cannot win I fight For the light Depression Don't need a Dr session Need people true But they make me blue Hate life And it's strife But I'm here So much fear No one ever near Alone am I Living under the open sky To belong I so long To late This is my fate Don't care Cause I don't dare The sun bakes me a medium rare The rain Brings pain The cold Makes me old Life The strife All I see I long to be free But I'm stuck being me Mother's mistake Love is fake Wish I was real The pain I feel Drives me down Kicking hard not to drown I stay afloat Too many holes drilled in my boat At the end of my road Hard to carry my load Mind if I sit here awhile Enjoy your smile No where left to go I know It is all on me What I see Nothing is at the end A lifetime I did spend Searching for who I was meant to be But I'm just me Mothers mistake Sitting by a lake Bad decisions I always make Lead me here This loneliness I fear I wish I was wanted But my life is haunted Dreams and desires Lost in the burning fires Of my heart As life falls apart I wish I may Find the right words to say I wish I might Win this fight And find the light And be me The man I wish to be