More Foolish Than the Fool I Am

waking up to what I thought was a normal day until I take a step forward walking into the invisible barbed wires cutting into my outreaching hands blood dripping down my arms my face scarred tears of crimson i couldn’t see the limits still can’t see them never knowing how long they will last staying in the same position eyes only chasing the glowing stars that appear once a month never knowing what they are with no way of ever finding out with time revolving around me mocking me of my own immobility while time freely goes forward on its own accord i envy time i envy the cranes flying freely in the heavens above i envy movement full of vitality and hope the motion of the waves predictable in its predictability the rainstorms pounding down the windows comes and goes never knowing when it will come next comes and goes with the towers of sunlight erecting through the skies only to be striked down in a moment of seconds i envy i wish i could forget everything i learned about the constellations the existence of the phoenixes and the dragons the rise and the deaths of the past gods and goddesses that once ruled our earth i wish i was more foolish than the fool i already am what is more painful is a fool who knows that they’re a fool and that is the truth the wretched yet inevitable truth that I can never run away from just keeps flashing back at me endlessly like a pounding pendulum that never leaves my head to the peace and quiet of my solidarity sobs