Misunderstood

I'm not prone to violence, but I have no conscience. I'm aware of happiness, saddness and every emotion, I just lack the ability to feel any of them. Every smile and tear I display I always fake. I study the behaviour of others and assimilate, but not so much as a conscious deception. I'm just desperatly attempting to fit in. My world is one of me surrounded by alians whose lives are apparently dictated by their emotions. I cannot make a connection with any of them and so I live most of my life in isolation. I have lost my share of so called loved ones but I never for a moment grieved for any of them. One cannot grieve when one does not know emotion. I have an accurate awareness of what is right and wrong Like so many I strive to be good. I want to belong, but I'll never know what it feels like to cry or laugh. I have been diagnosed a psychopath.